Being dyspraxic a lot tends to happen in your life, if I was to list every scrape or situation I've got myself into over the years I would be here for hours. From broken bones and trips to A&E, to loosing objects and myself, numerous bruises where I have no idea where they've come from, to using far to struggling making friends and finding social situations a challenge and experiencing bullying . You name it it's probably happened. Aside from sore and bruised limbs and a sore purse from replacing things which I've lost, it's made me think the worst possible outcome in a lot of situations and do quite a bit of avoidance and hiding. Anxiety is something which I talk quite a bit in my blogs. When you're dyspraxic you face quite a few challenges, the world can be an unpredictable, overwhelming place and I've got myself into so many pickles, alongside that comes a lot of anticipatory anxiety, social anxiety and the fear of fear and those horrible physical symptoms anxiety can bring.
Something which can really help is reassurance, now the anxious brain can at times seem like you want constant reassurance that you haven't messed something up, people don't dislike you and you're not as bad as your mind tells you. I think if you've experienced bullying or other awful experiences it can have such an impact on how you see yourself. Then there's the feelings you're going to die or have something life threatening when experiencing anxiety attacks or the physical side to anxiety. For loved ones this can get quite repetitive at times. But a little bit of reassurance can mean a lot to someone when they are going through a challenging time in life. The little things can mean the world, often people with anxiety don't want a lot of fuss, but even simply listening to someone can mean a lot and that they will be ok and the anxiety won't harm them can help ease the storm a little.
The last few months have been quite a challenge for me anxiety wise, and I just wanted to say a little thank you for the little bits of reassurance, it means so much. I recently faced quite a challenging situation applying for a new job and although my social anxiety was in overdrive, both thoughts and physically I found out last week I got the job and they want to use my empathy for others in a positive way and I will finally have access to help and support.
I may have quite a way to go managing my anxiety, but I'm looking forward to but still understandably terrified about a new chapter in my life. My own experiences have fuelled these blogs and I hope if you're reading this it gives you a little bit of reassurance that you're not alone. As I sit here writing this, with a bruised chin and knee after a fall over the weekend, if you as prone to accidents it's not just you. One thing I hope from these blogs is people get is a sense of realness, sometimes they might not be the most positive of blogs but that's a reflection to the world we live in. Life can be a struggle, it's not all all rainbows and sunshines, you just have to hold onto that little bit of hope, and that things will end up ok and this too shall pass.
Here's a little bit of reassurance which I got written for me recently, I thought it might help others to share it.